l e t t i n g g o

22 june 2026                                                                                                                  mainz, germany

one of the most freeing realizations i have had in recent years is that other people's opinions do not define me.
and yet, if i am honest, this is something i am still learning.

especially now, while bringing farbenflow into the world. sharing something so personal online and offline, following my intuition, my creativity, and my dreams, naturally comes with being seen and receiving different opinions.
maybe this journal entry is simply part of that process. a small practice in letting go.

for a long time, i was afraid of being judged, misunderstood, rejected, or seen in the wrong way. especially in social situations, this fear influenced many of my decisions.

at the same time, i have always been inspired by people who fully embraced their individuality. people who were not afraid to be different. people who expressed themselves freely without constantly adjusting to what others might think.

somehow, i always loved having energies like that around me. and maybe this fascination existed because, deep down, i always felt a little different myself.

school was not always easy for me. looking back, i am grateful for many of those experiences because they taught me something important very early in life: how to spend time on my own, how to be independent, how to hold myself, and how to find connection within myself.

over time, i began to realize that not everyone will understand me. not everyone will like me. not everyone will resonate with the way i move through life.

and while a part of me still finds that difficult sometimes, another part of me increasingly feels at peace with it.
i try less to be liked by everyone.
i adapt less than i used to.
i feel less shame for my needs, preferences, and the things that make me who i am.

not because i have mastered this lesson, but because i am slowly learning that being understood by everyone was never the goal.

because if someone does not like me for who i truly am, then maybe we are simply not meant to walk the same path and maybe that is okay.

i am also learning that i can be alone without feeling lonely, that i can hold myself through uncertainty, and that the more honestly i show up as myself, the easier it becomes to attract people who resonate with exactly that version of me.

life becomes lighter when we stop trying to be liked by everyone and allow ourselves to take up space as we are and maybe the right people will not love us despite our individuality.

maybe they will love us because of it.